Crucify The Ego - Hey After reading alot of Amazing experiences you and others have posted, i thought i would share with you an experience i had recently. Right so lets start at the beginning. About 2 years ago i was barely into drugs, I very rarely had a joint with some mates but other than that there was nothing. Around this time I was helping care for my Grandad who ws dying of cancer. he was the only father figure ive ever had so when he eventually passed away it was an incredibly hard time and i found myself turning to marijuana a bit more. (probably for the wrong reasons) On the day he passed a song by city and colour called ‘missing’ randomly came on shuffle and i immediately broke down. this was within an hour of my grandads passing and it felt like there was some kind of connection. since that day i have never been able to listen to that song and also i have never been able to wear my liverpool shirt (the football team we both supported) (im rambling so ill try and cut the story short) my step brother, who has been a major help to me since this time always spoke about mdma and often spoke about how it had changed his perspective on a few things and about 3 months ago i tried it for the first time and it was amazing. i got so close with friends that id never even tried to get close with and made some amazing new friends. But this is not the experiance i wanted to share. About a week ago i did some MDMA for a second time, with a very small group of friends and we were all sharing things we had never told people before and there was this incredible bond in the room. we were sat by candle light listening to soft music when all of a sudden had this incredible feeling that i needed to listen to that song that i had not been able to listen to since the day of my grandads passing. at this moment i noticed one of the candles my step brother placed was lighting up a photo of my grandad and i just decided to go with the feeling i was having. so i told my friends what i wanted to do and they agreed to support me through it. so I grabbed my old liverpool shirt and we sat in an embrace as the song started to play. I have never felt such a feeling of love in my life. these 3 people were not judging me or hating what was happening, all they saw was that i needed them there for me. and when the song finished, i took the deepest breath i think ive ever taken in my life, and i was just overcome with this feeling of relief. I felt like i had finally let go of the sadness surrounding my grandads death and finally felt able to take on the world again.

11th July 2011

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thesetypedletters asked: Hey After reading alot of Amazing experiences you and others have posted, i thought i would share with you an experience i had recently.
Right so lets start at the beginning.
About 2 years ago i was barely into drugs, I very rarely had a joint with some mates but other than that there was nothing. Around this time I was helping care for my Grandad who ws dying of cancer. he was the only father figure ive ever had so when he eventually passed away it was an incredibly hard time and i found myself turning to marijuana a bit more. (probably for the wrong reasons)
On the day he passed a song by city and colour called 'missing' randomly came on shuffle and i immediately broke down. this was within an hour of my grandads passing and it felt like there was some kind of connection. since that day i have never been able to listen to that song and also i have never been able to wear my liverpool shirt (the football team we both supported)
(im rambling so ill try and cut the story short)
my step brother, who has been a major help to me since this time always spoke about mdma and often spoke about how it had changed his perspective on a few things and about 3 months ago i tried it for the first time and it was amazing. i got so close with friends that id never even tried to get close with and made some amazing new friends. But this is not the experiance i wanted to share.
About a week ago i did some MDMA for a second time, with a very small group of friends and we were all sharing things we had never told people before and there was this incredible bond in the room. we were sat by candle light listening to soft music when all of a sudden had this incredible feeling that i needed to listen to that song that i had not been able to listen to since the day of my grandads passing. at this moment i noticed one of the candles my step brother placed was lighting up a photo of my grandad and i just decided to go with the feeling i was having. so i told my friends what i wanted to do and they agreed to support me through it. so I grabbed my old liverpool shirt and we sat in an embrace as the song started to play. I have never felt such a feeling of love in my life. these 3 people were not judging me or hating what was happening, all they saw was that i needed them there for me. and when the song finished, i took the deepest breath i think ive ever taken in my life, and i was just overcome with this feeling of relief. I felt like i had finally let go of the sadness surrounding my grandads death and finally felt able to take on the world again.

This was really beautiful to read.. Thank you so much for sharing such a deeply personal story..Mr Shulgin would be proud to read this im sure :) <3